Not only is my hair transitioning from relaxed to natural but my mindset is also transitioning. As I was doing my hair a few minutes ago (I didn't even finish because I just had to share) I was putting a little gel on my edges to smooth them down and get them as flat as possible. Even at about 9 months of transitioning, my mindset is still on relaxed. I want to go natural but sometimes I want a relaxed look. When I do achieve the task of getting my edges as flat as possible, as soon as I go outside for a few hours, they are right back to being frizzy. I find myself getting frustrated because I've worked so hard to get this look as if I had a relaxer. I continuously have to remind myself that this is what comes with being natural, texture.
Also, when I started transitioning, I had no idea why. Because I wanted longer healthy hair? Because I wanted curls just as easily as washing my hair? Just because?
Well over this journey, I've realized I'm doing it because I need that confidence and self pride. I need to feel good about myself no matter if my hair is relaxed at APL or a natural TWA. I have to realize that I'm beautiful no matter how my hair looks or what anyone thinks of me.
10 more days until BC. :)